I'm missing something...

Started off with a forward received 2 days ago... which had a question as to 'what do you want'. All I knew was this..., that I dont know.... A Friend gave me a way asking if I knew 'what I want' and 'what I need'.And ..., now I know...'I have all I need..., now..., what do I want'...!I am still searching, within and around........Recently been reading Ayn Rand's Atlas Shrugged... feeling every word of it, every ounce of Objectivism scattered around in the Novel. I see myself among those fighting for a purpose against those who think are aware of the purpose. But neither of them know what the purpose is or what they think they are aware of that purpose.Many years of married life and a question like 'why did he/she agree to marry me' is devastating. More interestingly, would the answer now be the same as the answer then or the answer later?Is that person that ONE thing I WANT the most in my life or a MEANS to that ONE thing I WANT the most in my life...BTW, I dont think I NEED either of them, either...Objectivating...If thats what I could call it...Darshan.